You are the apple of my eyes.

長大之後 發現自己越來越少寫日記

沒有寫日記的症狀 就是發現自己根本就是初老

很多小事根本都記不得

所以多虧了有之前斷斷續續寫的"月記"

讓一些不值得題的小事都可以記得清清楚楚

距離在一起大概已經過了超過半年了

I sometimes have the feeling that he doesn't seem to love me as much as before.

according to the time that he chatted with me

Is he the one that I'm going to marry to 

Do I still have chances to regret everything?

I think that I am really an impulsive person.

I never thought of the consequences and thought twice

And, all these decisions result in the circumstances that I am in now

I should be less reliable on him, I should do my own business.

I know these concept very well. However, I still can't make it.

These days, I am thinking of not to talk to him as often as now

But, is that the way I want? Do I really want this kind of relationship?

I'm not him; he is not me. We are always guessing each other's thought.

Without the interaction or conversation, we won't know each other's needs forever.

Sometimes, I was turned down by him, which really frustrated me.

I would think that maybe I am less attractive before. 

In this way, I lost my confidence in me. 

Am I NOT supposed to be myself in this relationship?

I desired to be myself. I determined not to stand in other people's shoes.

No matter what situation will become, I don't want to think about other people.

Once I am disappointed at somebody, I would make up my mind to make it over.